A month ago I found myself sitting at a coffee shop writing a post about how functional medicine is making me well again. After a long summer, in and out of doctor’s appointments and finding healing through functional medicine, I never suspected that my Mami was dealing with health issues of her own.
My Mami has always been a strong, healthy woman that when her back started giving her problems a few weeks prior, I never considered that it was more than just a backache. That backache; however, wasn’t healing but instead leaving her lethargic and weak. A day after sitting at that coffee shop, my Dad and I took her to the clinic for an evaluation.
She was struggling to walk.
Even then, I was praying that it was a pinched nerve or something due to her arthritis, but instead, after a grueling week of ct scans, an MRI, and blood labs, my Mami was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer. Her backache was a tumor that was literally crushing her spine.
Her cancer was aggressive, she was already weak, and needed immediate radiation to shrink the tumor on her spine that would have left her paralyzed. The following four weeks are a blur.
She decided to forego chemotherapy and instead try a natural route to slow her cancer called, The Gerson Therapy. My sisters and I took turns staying with her for a week at a time to be her full-time caretaker and provide extra support for my father. Both my sisters and I ended up being by her side nearly every day.
My Mami tried hard to follow the therapy but the cancer was moving too quickly. The Gerson Therapy needs time that she didn’t have. Four weeks after her diagnosis, my Mami passed into the arms of Jesus – a triumphant victory for my Mami but a great loss for those that loved her most. She was 63 years old, a week shy of 64.
I was reluctant to share this. I wanted to quit writing as so many of my Mami’s memories live on this blog. That’s when the Lord reminded me of Romans 8:28.
And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.
The past month was the most difficult of my life. Having to watch the woman you love most in your life slowly pass away was heart-wrenching … but God. His sweet presence was felt as people throughout our nation prayed over my family day and night. We could feel the power in those prayers. During this time, I lived intimately with my God and my family. Through His strength, my family was able to encourage one another that no matter what, everything would be okay. Although difficult, we would continue pressing on.
I have to tell you, the past year has been one of difficulty. It seems as though one trial has come right after another. My sister and dear friend lost their tiny babies too soon, a sweet sister in Christ lost her father too soon, and then finally my mother passed away, too soon. In looking back, I see that the Lord was preparing me for this newly found grief. A sorrow that might have been too heavy to bear had I not have been placed in deep waters beforehand.
Through everything, my father with such faith you cannot shake would repeat to me, “Nana, we will take things one day at a time. We only have today.”
It was hard for me. I’m a fixer. I wanted to fix my Mama. I wanted her to be healed with my own head knowledge and research. After a week into my Mami’s treatment, I had to surrender to the Lord that there was nothing I could do to change the course of His will. I had to stop worrying and I had to just be there for her. To sit beside her and read her Spanish fairytales. To watch a Spanish soap opera with her. To comb her hair, gently scratch her arms, and massage her legs and feet. To just be still with my Mami.
I will treasure those moments.
My Mami’s Legacy
I will miss my Mami for the rest of my life. I pray that I can carry on a bit of who she was. Through the years she taught me these things listed below by living them out.
- Don’t be jealous of your sisters, family, and friends. Oh, friends, she lived this. She was never jealous of others accomplishments, instead, she rejoiced with them.
- Don’t be bitter, instead, forgive. When people did her wrong, she was saddened but so quick to let things go and forgive. She always expressed to me to do the same.
- Be content with what He has given to you. She was truly a contented woman. She lived her life for her family and found joy in her simple, everyday life.
I hate sharing such sad things, but this is life.
This is true life and why our need for a Savior is so important. Without Him, this life would be meaningless. There would be no Hope. Through Him, joy can be found even in our deepest trials. I had days of peace and rest knowing that my Mami’s life was not ending but just beginning. My perspective is now on the eternal. I pray to continue to live just for today because tomorrow is not guaranteed. Some days will be good, some hard, but each can be filled with His love, joy, and peace when we believe that Jesus Christ is our Lord and Savior. When we believe that He came to this earth to shed his blood so that we can be in direct communication with our God and be saved for eternal life. Friends, if you don’t know Jesus, come. He knows you, He wants you, there is hope which gives meaning to your life lived today and for all eternity.
If you’re looking to know who Jesus is, leave me a comment or email me directly at [email protected] I’ll pray with you and do my best to send you resources to get you connected with local believers.
Soon on the Blog!
My Mami wouldn’t want me to quit writing on this blog. She was my biggest supporter. I’m going to continue writing for my God and my Mami.
Throughout this past month, the Lord has invigorated my soul to share with you the importance of living a life in wellness.
Friends, I know hearing the word cancer can be scary to so many people. The truth is that 1 in 3 women will get cancer in their lifetime and 1 in 2 men will as well. That’s a staggering statistic and one you don’t have to be afraid of. First of all, if you have cancer, which I’m sure many of my readers do, there is hope! There are so many people curing their cancers by all natural treatments or an integrative approach. For those that don’t have cancer, I want to encourage you to be up to date with what’s going on in cancer treatments and preventative measures. Once you tap into that world you’ll be encouraged and empowered to live a life in real food and non-toxic green living. All that I will be sharing with you!
For now, I want to share some amazing resources with you.
- Chris Beat Cancer and his Square One Online Course – I really encourage everyone (even if you don’t have cancer) to watch this online course. It is so well put together and encourages and empowers you! It’s worth every penny!
- The Gerson Therapy – A proven protocol to heal cancer and many other degenerative diseases. Facebook group – Gerson Therapy Support Group.
- Cannabis Oil – This is a controversial topic but one that is gaining more recognition as a cure for a host of diseases including cancer. Check out the Facebook group, Cannabis Oil Success Stories for education. I’m a believer and supporter of cannabis oils and feel it should be made legal in all 50 states.
For now, my family needs time as we learn to walk this life with a gaping hole in it. I will forever miss my Mami but I pray that through her life, others will come to know the Lord Jesus.
My next post will be my functional medicine post and how it’s brought wellness to my life. I hope you will be encouraged!